
(This is an exercise in pure awareness)
Choose
one sense object for a basic object of attention. It is suggested that you
choose either the sensations in one part of your body of your breathing or the
sounds around you.
Focus your attention on this object, but do so in such a way that if your
attention shifts to something else you are immediately aware of the shift.
Let us suppose you have chosen for your basic object of attention your
breathing. Well, then, concentrate on your breathing.... It is quite likely that
after a while your attention will move to something else a thought, a sound, a
feeling.... Now provided you are aware of this shift of attention to something
else, this shift is not to be counted as a distraction. It is important,
however, that you be aware of the shift while the shift is taking place or
immediately after it has taken place. Count it a distraction only if you become
aware of the shift long after it has taken place.
Suppose you choose breathing as your basic object of attention. Then your
exercise will possibly go something like this:
I am breathing.... I am breathing.... Now I am thinking.... thinking....
thinking.... Now I am listening to a sound.... listening.... listening.... Now I
am irritated.... irritated. Now I feel bored.... bored.... bored...
In this exercise, the wandering of the mind is not considered a distraction
provided you are aware that your attention is shifting to some other object....
Once you have become aware of this shift, stay with the new object (thinking,
listening, feeling....) for a while, then return to the basic object of your
attention (breathing).... your skill in self-awareness may become so great that
you will not only become aware of the shift of your attention on to some object,
but even of the desire to shift, the impulse in you to shift on to something
else. As when you want to move your hand you will first become conscious of the
desire arising within you to move the hand, your consent to this desire, your
carrying out of this desire, the very first stirring of your hand.... All of
which activities are performed in an infinitesimal fraction of a second and so
we find it impossible to distinguish one from the other until the silence and
stillness within us has become almost total and our awareness has acquired razor
edge sharpness. Self-awareness is a powerful means for increasing in love of God
and of neighbour. The self-awareness heightens the love. The love, when it is
genuine, fosters deeper self-awareness.
Do not go in search of abstruse means for developing your self-awareness. Begin
with humble things like the awareness of the feel of your body or awareness of
the things around you and then more on to exercises like the ones which are
suggested here and it won’t be long before you notice the fruits of
peacefulness and love that heightened self-awareness brings with it.